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Monday, March 23, 2009

A blessing to the world. We come and go as travellers. We get to know fellow travellers and learn from their experiences. We have family and friends. Yet, we are individuals (one single entity) but tied to other travellers in subtle ways.
In the age of adolescents, we often search for the one unique identity that we and we alone possess. We worry about how others may view us and we continue to search relentlessly. The people around us during that period of time are crucial to our identities.
When i was 12, i was a conceited pig. Ooohh la la, yes i was. I was in a school where i could perform, where i was the teachers' pet, where i have many frens. I am conceited. When i entered a girls school, i was trying to adapt. Trying to be more sensitive, less conceited and understanding that you can learn from everyone around you were some of the stages i had to go through in secondary school. However, i distanced more from my parents and sister as friends took priority at that time. Silly but i was an adolescent. It was really his plan for me to go into this school, to know all these friends, to know what is it to be a God fearing kid (yes yes, the principal drove it into our minds during every assembly) to know how to be unscheming in the world of schemes and to love my family more.
In general, as travellers passing through Earth, we have to gain more since this is a one way trip. Aller simple (single trip, no return). In travelling, we can revisit the place, stay stagnant at a place and enjoy the sceneries. In life, the journey is ongoing and we cannot return to when we were a kid to redo things that we want to be undone. In actual fact, it will make memories worthless if we can return to the past.
I am watching the butterfly effect and the Time machine while i type this. Knowing the future rips the hope and love we may possess for the future, and changing the past may not make us any happier. So, live forward, live the present as you want it!
p.s. i miss you guys so much!

Posted by Jessica at Monday, March 23, 2009