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Sunday, November 14, 2004

putting a post everyday cos gg to cambodia soon and can onlie blog after the 2 weeks..... haiz, think i must be mental to do something like that. at home, i rarely do household chores cos i'm rather bad at such stuff and i'm actually gg to cambodia for 15 days to elarn to take care of myself and others, still cannot believe i'm actually doing this..... Over the last few weeks peceding the trip, i'm still taking things quite lightly and think nothing of taking care of myself for the next 2 weeks, but now that i've onlie 1 week before the trip, just can't help but voice some doubts. Whether i can cope and not get myself sick and injured? can i adapt and what i want to achieve over there? some of my frens think that i'm gg cos of the CIP hours..... well, i dun deny that but something more than that i guess..... sheltered and protected all this while, can't say that i'm pampered or spoilt but better than most kids in other countries..... at least what this trip can give me will be a sense of contentment and maybe satisfaction, so that i wun complain too much while others are living on less. yupz, think that's what i want to achieve...... my mum is still pretty doubtful about me coping over the next 2 weeks and my suitcase is almost exploding with stuff like cough syrup, plasters and vitamin pills. haha, know that she's concerned so i didn't argue much cos hope to put her mind at ease.
my frens always say that i'm immature and playful..... quite unlike people of my age...... haha, oh well, that's me ma. hehe, but matured a lot since i graduated from sec. skool or so i think. At least i'm more capable in handling emotions that may arise due to problems in life..... maybe more sceptical towards inter-personal relationships. haha, suddenly so serious but i've to say that my perspective of frenships are quite different from in sec. skool. i have true and close frens but..... oh well, also dunnoe what else to add, but my views are different now. i still have ashley and gang and tan and lolly...... oh wells", still the happy old jessica at the end of the day (that's what felicia will always say about herself",)
aniwae, just crapped a lot in this post cos i did nuthing today except to stone in front of the TV but i feel better than i've been in days", took my malaria pills and do not have a fever or anything...... insomnia, not sure yet but will noe later haha...... yupz, gg for some youth org thing on tues with tan and lolly.tata and muackz",

Counting down to the trip: 8 days

Posted by Jessica at Sunday, November 14, 2004